I was born
But a year before time travel with flux capacitors
Shit I even spelled that right

And all the pop in my veins
All the culture spread before me
Like a neo-hippy and her tie-dye yesteryear blanket

But do hope to weave something new

creating addiction

could use a shower
or just a warm hand
to dance on with
there’s musiclife and nights
smoke and booze whispers
whipping through these lungs
down the back of this throat
tickles, like busy fingers
exploring new skin
creating addiction

Of Privilege and Pensiveness

you smile wide in comfort
without a worry in yer veins
jaded in your brilliance
and security

this smiles wide always
through my trials
through my pain
through every fall or stumble
and each days impairing break

I would like to show you
I'’d like to give you back your sight
I'’d like to take away your affluence
and show you what it's like
to smile like you mean it
when it's hard to stand and fight
to hold your head above the water
to truly feel the light

bottomless

just a metalic green pool
copper scent echoes
not even empty
as the sun and the atmosphere make the perfect liquid
metalic green copper scent echoes

so some Confederate, he
goes for a swim,
throws his coat up against
a pin oak,
slides in,
disperses

dip a cup into the pool
maybe
you can take it with you
make it
less
in incriments

i'll be america
you be a naked body

the headlights
careening through night
down a highway
and me
feeling more holy and metallic
in the drunken
bad decision moment
the road stumbles beneath
and the trembling planet

hey jack,
where'd you while
through
all yer crazy christmas's
on rushing boxcars
wind blown and drunk,
at mom's
clutchin a bottle of mad dog
with one or two
of your crazy haired friends
passin through florida,
in all the new yorks
and san franciscos
and all the in betweens
of this poor crying beat down
desolate railroad earth

so far
from four naked feet
and that sea
of cool marble

and so many lines
behind
these fingers
starved and broken
miles and miles
women and bottles
storms and stories

and
somewhere in someone elses
memory
of a new year's miami
a man i don't like
so much
yelled
"there's no book deal"
down an alley littered
with homeless

so far
from four naked feet
and that sea
of cool marble
i think i feel him yelling it,
at me

christmas gifts
with foil wrapping
accentuate
children's wide eyes
and
my empty echoing pockets

but its not so cold this year
and the drafts of this house
are less
pronounced
then usual

Twisted in the Heart

With vestigial eyes and a smile worth diamonds
Your fervour climbed over me

He says

Maybe I forgot the winter of your worth

Maybe I was the last chance you had to feel summer

I prefer the fall

Everyday

I clung to the idea that the bottom pieces hidden by the ones on top were somehow redeeming

'Let them preach', I said

Adorable as it was, your truculant backstage persona was rentable at best

Like the precious little noose you wore tucked behind a velvet vest

Post mortem whispers in our dirty little dungeon where pungent lust was our only stall

Starlight

Starbright

First scar I feel tonight

Joshua Fink

How'd he get my address anyway

The monk who invented champagne
Who knew all the bubbles
By their separate names
And would call them
One by one
In his sleep
Had dreams of the opals and diamonds
He stole from the sky
To put in his drink
And kept in his journal
Each dream that he had
And handed it down straight to me

Now when I sleep
With champagne on my breath
I toss and I turn
And diamonds poke at my sides
And opals blind my closed eyes
And I hope that old monk f-in’ burns

Coulda been my home too

Those slowed down some bodies
Homebodies
Exchange old stories
And there’s no way to capture
Their easy laughter
Not even in poetry
So I say let them keep it
In their little place
In a space they now own
For ever theirs
And leave them alone

Identity theft

I know who I am

And I don’t need a number or a card or anything

I know the names of my pets and the natural color of my hair

I know how many people I fucked and how many I wish I fucked

I know who I am

I know that I don’t know the capitols of all the states

I also know how little I care

I know all the drugs I’ve done and all the drugs I’d wish I’d done

I know who I am

And so when everyone is yelling’

‘Bout what a fucking stupid bitch I am

For losing my identity

And canceling all my credit cards

And my license to drive a car

I can smile and say

I know who I am

And

…

I also know

You fuckers know who I am

But you don’t have a fucking clue

About who you are

giant upside-down planarian shaped spaceships
the mammary glands of underwater creatures
the pharoahs of ancient egypt
milk, bread and orange juice
feliz navidad

they say that in
the begining, there were angels

well I see angels exhaling their
souls like cigarette clouds

and soaking the strobes of sun
dripping onto the road


so tell me where things have changed

I say it's still the begining

i find myself wonderin'
wether or not
i could play
angel halos
like wine glasses
runnin my finger around the rim
to make them hum
and sing
and if it would sound
like
hosanas

brant ducks bobbing
tail uo
for fish
swimming
in shallow water
drifting
among the ripples
they make

life is a muse
the way light
falls
on infinite things
and they appear
to dance
holy
at all moments
just the budhist illusion
Maya
singing and swaying
like
heat above the road

the way this old cars parked
got her nose pointin straight
into bright blue empty infinite

and the thought runs through
that if i floor it in low gear
just maybe she might clear
that taunting immaculate horizon

wash away all the sins and pains
with cloudstuff amongst jetstream
shake hands with angels
before crashing down

gypsy dreams
and
keroscene

ashes to ashes
and
lust to lust

erosion

cold and silent
and grey paint flecks,
and the lost
luster
dusting the
road,
shimmering trail
reflecting
refracting
birds of prey
hiding within
the sun
and carving
shadows
into slivers
and light
into shards

Chills and Well Wishes

your tone sounds
the bitter sting of winters wind
you breathe about indifference
distant like destinations end

surely the gawking gaggle
of petty footed illiberal fools
heard rumor of dear friends departure
and are ecstatic with the news

there is no intent to hurt or mar
no underlying threat
just the need to keep in touch
with all of life’s movement

so I step aside and carry on
your imprint in my heart
but I will not stay here watching you
break yourself apart

now asking nothing from you
just love and betterment
of yourself and to live your life
without a single regret

absent- but not gone
my brain rambles
socially withdrawn
don't feel igored
or call me stupid
Just get my attention,
bring my brain to the present
this is where it's at
because here with you
these thaughts won't stew
though times were great
the past is gray
I'll fill the blanks
another day

for my or maybe your... you know

seldom kiss between the meanings
collecting faces and rarely breathing
cutting pieces from your memory
leaving home to pursue your enemies
i'm locking all this from my favor
dying to fall upon old behavior
casting stones at won't be saviours
lying down upon the railroads
looking for a love called salvage
damage goods in shrink wrapped packages
cut my face from pictures loneliness
bedding down with paperback romance
treading water and finding rosencrance
strumming rotten five string instuments
to tell the truth i've just been impotent
masturbate to my friend syphillus
typhoid promises hacking coughin fits
i found the exit procedure bothersome
stick around till i find anyone
to solve this puzzle and my rubix cube
to be quite honest i can' find the tube
theres idiots in that box
i'm damn near out of clocks
and radio plays disco sonet rock
has any of this penetrated your box
of unclaimed personal effects
and by the time that your through reading this
is the top of the bottom any more romantic
when you can't find a flashlight to keep a promise
to the next time you'll be out of tissues
which of my freinds should i use
and to make it simple if forgotten
but i ripped my pants and swallowed buttons
now forgive my nevermind that last part
i am sure that i could believe in...

...must have fallen overboard
is there a name that maybe i could afford
just relay this criptic message
while i bask in winters undue suffrage

the golden sky
split and crushed
down upon us
with the dreams
and murders of old dreams
sparkling in our eyes

our hands wrinkled with
futures and truths
and the blind lies
and hubris
litened to by the blessed

and the tears in
the afterglow
reflected whispers of god

the light that
breaks and shows
at dawn
in holy holy
oneness waters
all around
this glow
this glow
this glow

breaks and shows
for us

their blessed ruins
in this horizon
for the souls
that seek beyond
and theirs
sparkling
beyond truth or
damnation
in the midnight dreamings
show everything
the
world

stepped in mud once

you can tell him he’s won
the girls broken heart
and all the lost pieces
that have fallen off

because loving you
just feeds the fire more wood

you’ve got your blankets
a tent and a tarp
that’s too small to keep
the rain from her heart

just place her among all rest
of your forgotten memories

for every door you've ever closed and all the ones you never opened

i've envisioned your face
placed violently between
floorboards and rage
neglect of time spent
wasted and waste

maybe one day you’ll open you’re eyes

begging without knees

you’re my morning after hell
another taste of addiction
but harder to kick than
the ones shredded like ribbons
into my skin and
you’re right I can hate
the waste of you
dripping down my throat
making me choke
on memories hard
like liquor and smiles
more alive than
the bed you lay in
silently fading