addicted to drowning

i dove
way too soon
now i'm stranded and alone
once again left
choking in the wake
you helped create

it's just that
for the first time
the water was just right
and swimming
with you by my side
i could bare the oceans bite

now with each waves
relentless break
your face
washes through my brain
as i gasp to breathe
what we could have been