iwish

everyday is slow and tedious and somehow in all these moments in all of these match head moments there is not one spark and every last second is freezing cold the cold that you don't feel unless youre alone the cold that bites through and reminds you that you took anything warm for granted like it would always be there and now that it isnt you hate this cold with every last frozen fiber of your being. you can tell me all the time you dont mind the cold but i know you do because it is the worst pain i have ever felt and i will not lie this is the worst pain i have ever felt and i will not lie i wish i was warm and i will not lie i would rather not feel this and i will not lie... i wish i was dead.